Thursday, April 22, 2010

Who am I?

Who am I? What drives my beliefs? What makes me make the decisions that I do? Am I a leader or a follower? Why don’t I speak up? If people don’t know me it’s because I don’t give them the chance to…by keeping silent, I am shutting out people from ever finding out what I think, what I feel, how I react to things. Even if there is a conversation and I clearly disagree with the person, I keep quiet. Why do I shy away from defending what I believe in? Is it because I think they are so fickle that I am not capable of doing so? Who am I? What makes me me? Why do I think the way I do? Why can’t I speak up? Why do I have so many hang-ups? Is it my faith or my family that drives my beliefs? My own experiences or what I’ve heard from others? I feel strongly about certain things but why don’t I ever take action about it? Do I always need someone else to help me make my decisions? Why can’t I do it myself? I need answers and I’m not sure I know how to go about finding them.